im so totaly exhausted both mentally and phsically exhausted at the moment no one will believe me that the grim reaper has joined with me and we are now the same person im desperatly in need of someone to believe in me instead i get the threat of going into hospital its about 30 miles from me so how can anyone visit maybe thats the point.im trying to get sleeping tablets because of the nightmares every night i think its because of him maybe i see what he sees too,all i want is to sleep and be alone neither at the moment are possible if we didnt have a guest i would have overdosed by now and at least been out of it for a while,i really need help but now its not there